Oh my! How did this happen? How did Kubendran get to be a year old already? Yes, you read that right my little baby turns ONE TODAY! I can’t even stand it. Throughout this whole weekend, starting on Monday night, I relived this entire weekend as it unfolded last year. It was hard adjusting to the days of the weekend not coinciding with the real dates like last year, but it was fun. For instance, on this past Monday night I turned to my hubbie and said, “hey sayang, this time last year, we were on our way home from the Dr.’s clinic so we could go out for a nice Teh Tarik.
This afternoon after a short nap as I woke up and looked at the clock at precisely 5.53pm, and relived the birth of my little boy. It was at 5.53pm last year on this date my little boy graced this world with his presence . I had been in the hospital since Sunday morning, going through inducing drugs. I feared having my baby on Sunday, which was the 1st January, because some believe that Sunday is not auspicious even its New Year (Ayiooo Indian Believe Maaa)And Finally my Baby was Out On Monday after So much of struggle….Well..It was C-Section.
So I guess, without further ado, I should get down to business and write my little Boy his 1 year letter. Here’s your warning people…grab the hankie and get comfy.
My dear Darling Kubendran,
Today is perhaps the biggest milestone (oh ! My I can’t even get through the first sentence without my eyes welling up) of your first year. Sure, you’ve hit some major milestones like, taking to breastfeeding like a champ, smiling at us on cue, sleeping through the night at 7 weeks old, rolling over from front to back and back to front, eating a various array of solid foods starting at 4 months,not giving up on the pacifier without being prompted to, sitting up unassisted, standing, cruising along the furniture, walking unassisted, using some baby sign language to communicate with us-, getting 9 teeth (two of them being molars…blast those molars…they were my least favorite) and of course talking and saying various words. But really, for me, making it to your first birthday means so much more than any of that. It means we did it! Your appa and I made it through the first year. We didn’t fail at parenting (yet!)! It means we (your appa and I) sustained a human life aside of our own with only a few bumps and bruises along the way. But all in all, it was a really good year.
Lil Kubendran, from the moment I first laid eyes on you at 5.57pm that Rainy January day last year I felt love like never before. I confess I’ve kissed you more times than I think I’ve ever kissed anyone from the top of your sweet baby smelling head to tippiest of tips of your toes, I can’t refrain from the kissing. I’ve hugged you close to my heart, so close and so tight, at times I thought I might squeeze your stuffin’ right out of your ears. I’ve been so lucky to have such a wonderful baby. You’ve never failed to surprise me. Those first nights home with you were some of the best. You’d need me in the middle of the night.
Over this past year, I am lucky to have also felt your love. Whether you know it or not, you’ve made me feel so loved. I’ve felt more loved than I ever thought anyone could love me. Oh sure, I knew I could love you, and I realize now just how much love I am capable of, but you loving me and wanting me to hold you and cuddle you is a whole other thing. Okay, so not everyday is that happy-go-lucky feeling of rainbows, pink hearts and unicorn butts, for goodness sake we all have our moments, but the times when we’re in tuned with each other are so special to me.
Okay, I’ve been writing this all day and I am fried. There just aren’t the right words to truly express to you how much I love you and how much this past year has meant to me. You’re the bestest kid in the whole wide world, I know it and your appa knows it. Oh and speaking of your appa…he has done a fantastic job with you. When you’re old enough to read this, you need to go and give him a huge hug for being the bestest dad ever!!! He has really stepped up to the plate and taken the bull by the horns baby by the diapers!!! You are very lucky to have him for a daddy and that makes me happy!
Well, your 1st year Birthday Party was fun Im so happy to make it meaningful coz I celebrated it for you with the unfortunate kids.grandma came over to help in cooking. By the time the birthday party started , you were so tired and didn’t want any part of it. Oh well, next time maybe! Maybe we’ll try tomorrow!
Here’s to your second year ! What adventures lie ahead? We’ll have to just wait and see.
I love you so much Lil Kubendran. Thank you for being a part of my life and being such a special little Boy.
Loving you,
Amma
